First and foremost I’d like to apologize for all previous spelling and grammatical errors that I’ve made in previous blog posts. I tried to make myself twice as productive by writing blog entries while at work. In between answering phones, booking appointments, ordering office supplies, and dealing with unhappy clients, I thought I was more than capable of providing quality writing for my gentle readers. I would learn over the weekend, while rereading old blog entries, that that couldn’t be further from the truth. I’m sorry for what probably came across as lazy and careless writing. I’ve decided that I will only relay spiritual messages to you outside of the office, and away from the hustles and bustles of my crazy work life.
During my meditation session a few days ago, my spirits relayed a message to me that I felt I needed to share with the rest of you. It was said so clear and precise that it gave me goosebumps. ‘It’s always been about you.’ Yes, you heard me correctly. It’s always been about YOU! This message is mostly for the women on this Twin Flame journey. I know what it’s like to twist your brain every which way wondering what the masculine is doing, and who they’re doing it with. It isn’t until you’ve taken the time to learn, heal, and grow, that you will realize that separation is the best thing that could’ve ever happened to the two of you. But enough about HIM, it’s always been about YOU!
I sat down and made a list of all of the wonderful things I’d attracted into my life since I began my Twin Flame journey. I know realize and rightfully agree, that had my beloved and I never separated;
- this blog would’ve never been created
- I would still suffer from a high level of FEAR
- I would still be plagued by anger and resentments of the past
- I would’ve never realized I had the ability to heal myself, as well as others
- My psychic abilities wouldn’t be anywhere near as developed as they are today
- I would’ve never regained my self confidence and learned to really love myself again
- I would’ve never realized how negative I once was
- I would still partake in things that lowered my vibration (ie. heavy drinking/drugs)
***I’d like to point out that during separation, my Twin Flame and I were not in communication with one another. And if we did communicate, it was through short winded emails. So for the most part, I was alone during the dark night of soul. However, I had friends who were always there for me when I needed to vent and let all of my thoughts and emotions out. I sent one of my friends a text this morning and asked her how the hell she put up with me for the last year. ‘I knew there was a spiritual meaning behind all of it,’ was her response. I’m truly blessed to have such awesome hippie friends.
Now I want you to take a step back and ask yourself if you would enjoy being in a relationship with YOU. Really, would you date someone like you? Are you needy? Are you trustworthy? Do you have your life together? Have you surrounded yourself with good and positive people? Do you have a drug/alcohol problem that you choose to ignore? Have you healed from past traumas? How is your relationship with your parents and family? How do you feel when you look in the mirror? How do you feel when you look at other people? Do you love yourself? Have you ever truly loved anyone before? These are all things that you need to consider before getting into a romantic relationship with anyone (not just your Beloved).
In reference to my the beginning of this blog entry. I was doing too much too fast. I took a few steps back and looked at which areas of my life needed balance and healing. My health was terrible, my fears made me psychotic, and my financial status was in the dirt. I was not someone who was ready to be in a relationship because my present was an absolute mess. I made a list of what needed to change and how I was going to change them. I began meditating and wrote down which healing practices worked, and which ones didn’t. I reached out to the public and provided healing advice (free of charge) to people suffering from past hurts and traumas. I started to care about the food I put into my body and started to workout at the gym again. I began to pay attention to how I felt around certain people and cut negative individuals out of my life who stole my energy and my light. I started dressing better and wearing clothes that I wanted to wear, not what I thought made me look ‘hot’ or desirable.
The Twin Flame journey is a lifestyle, not a love story. What you do with your newfound spiritual path is all up to you. It’s never about them, it’s always been about YOU!